Standing in the pain Lost direction Continue ahead for more of the same Turn and walk away I remain lost with no direction I inch along the path seeking clarity
Dark Damp Gloomy My existence The choices before me The path ahead All practically the same
Lost in thought The weather mimics my emotions Rain drops fall The tears follow Each serving a purpose Repairing, healing and growing Washing the slate clean
Detour ahead for the heart, body and soul
Forever
A word used often Doesn’t always play out as it is defined to mean Interpreting it has a way of meaning two different things
She entangled his need Leaving him breathless Always yearning for more Anticipation, her favorite to unleash Perfect control Bound intrigue Tortured ecstacy Pleading for sweet release
I held it in It was hard but I managed Inside I was breaking But I smiled
Just a little boy heading off on an adventure You will always be that little boy to me As the flight attendant took your hand I gripped tight to my emotions A mother’s love Ensuring you didn’t see
No tears would fall Heading towards the plane Your back to me I stood waiting
All my effort focused on holding back the emotions Just before you were out of sight You turned back to me Those eyes Fear and uncertainty
Again I smiled That reassuring glow Just enough You smiled back A little wave
To say, I’m ok Mom
Then you were gone A sigh release For I could no longer control the emotions bubbling up inside me With tears streaming down my face Unable to compose myself I walked away
Through the airport Where we had both arrived I now walked alone And I cried
I don’t remember the drive home I do remember feeling so alone The house was silent I waited for your call The phone finally rang It was you You made it there safely
The next 2 weeks Seemed like an eternity But before I knew it I was back at the airport Impatiently waiting
I caught a glimpse My little boy Running full speed Tears again in my eyes
You missed me too Big hugs Lots of smiles
My sweet boy Momma loves you And is so happy for you to be back home with her tonight.
Words from the heart Offering forever Unconditional love Comforting even the broken parts His arms for protecting Singing loves melody Without hesitation An offering As he spoke, “It has always been you” Realizing a dream All of him Forever and an eternity Loves all of me
Fading in and out Time unknown Days blur into nights Lost in you Tortured silence Your memory Stealing my thoughts Your face Smile on your lips The way you taste Remembering Pressed into time Unable to turn the page Spilled across my story Love still replays
