Tangled

Long Auburn hair
Gently tossled
From slumbers wake
Weaving between her hands
Golden braided strands
The calming way she soothes
Anxious feelings wash away
Tangled mess in braids

xoxo
♥️me
8/21/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

Kindness is Free

While you are judging
Others are suffering
Silence is a killer
Implanting fear

We all just want to be accepted
Be kind
If negativity leads your words
Don’t speak
Just listen
Sometimes that’s all that is needed
It could save a life
Something so simple
Hearing the words that we are scared to say
Tremendous impact

Fear
Shame
Self doubt
Judgment
These will love us to death

You have the opportunity to help someone
Unconditional love
Complete acceptance
Aren’t we all seeking the same

Be the change
Empower
Inspire
Accept without limitations


xoxo
♥️me
8/15/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

I See

I can hear it
The violence in his tone
The anger in his expression
The intensity in his stance
The hate in the words unspoken

I just met you but I see you
The you that is cleverly hidden
It’s not
You’re not
I feel it
I see it
I sense every bad piece of who you are

I possess a innate ability to read between the versions of you being presented with a smile

Trauma does that
A little gift, I wish I never received
The broken pieces
The broken inside of me
They see

xoxo
♥️me
Thebrokeninsideofme.com
7/29/2019

Complex Me


She is a product of her experiences and so many other things
Her beauty is the joy, humor & laughter she brings
She is smart, funny, and sometimes interesting
Her mood will determine which one you get to see
Her allure is a combination of so many things
She is thoughtful, kind & seductive
Her mystery can be found in her silence and all the unspoken things
She is simple & enjoys the little things
Her soul sees what you are hiding
She too also hides many things
Her attention is always focused on only a few things
She is healing from things that are broken
Her fragility is not something you will ever see
She is a leader and excels at many things
Her eyes show you the hunger, the want, the pain and everything it all brings
Her body language will tell you to come closer or step away
She is complex in every single way but so worth it

xoxo
♥️ me
Thebrokeninsideofme
7/13/2019

Repeat Repeat Repeat

Wake up
Task, routines & responsibilities 
Eat
Exchange pleasantries 
Smile, nod & wave to the neighbors 
Act like a normal person
Clearly everyone expects that of me
Try to hit pause long enough to take notice & appreciate all the beauty life brings

Now back to pretending 
Repeat 
Repeat 
Repeat 
Task, routines & responsibilities 
Eat
Practice selfcare 
Allow space for writing, reflecting, meditation & spirituality 


Unpause

Task, routines & responsibilities 
Eat
Sleep
Repeat 

Wasting time, can’t think about that now
Have to start it all over 
Task, routines & responsibilities 
Don’t forget
Repeat
Repeat 
Repeat 
Throw in extra smiles just to switch up the routine

Tomorrow, 
Repeating it all from the beginning 
Wake up
Task, routines & responsibilities 
Eat
Again, from the top
Repeat 
Repeat 
Repeat 

Really living
All in my head
Or

Walking around repeating & pretending 

Attempting to prolong the ending
The conclusion
I feel like I’m already dead

xoxo
♥️me
7/6/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme

TRUST

How do you dive deeper if it’s missing?

Where do you find the strength to let go?

How do you learn something you have never known?

Where is that relentless determination I have for other things?

How do I embrace the emotion?

Where is the feeling that it brings?

How have I made it this far without it?

Where is that someone for me?

How do I climb this mountain?

Where will I finally jump and unbind these wings?

How do I keep from just face planting?

Where is the connection that it brings?

How will I move forward without the answers to all of these things?

Trust, an allusive bitch or my answer to everything?

xoxo
♥️me
7/4/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme

Final

My heart is racing
All the emotions bubbling
My hands are shaking
I want to scream

Tears just below the surface
No one understands
I tried so hard to be patient
I held out hope for the words to come

I could have easily forgiven
But instead new damage was done
I opened my heart for her to understand
She crushed me
The words can’t be undone

It’s one thing to do it on my terms
But quite another when it is a task forced upon me
I will not be put in that situation again

The one who gave life to me
The one who tried to take life from me
The one who walked away
The one who gave me away
The one who lives happily

She made her choices
And so have I
So this is farewell, adios, and my final goodbye.



xoxo
♥️me
6/12/2018
Thebrokeninsideofme

Perhaps

How is it I find more comfort in the written words of a complete stranger?

Shouldn’t I find that comfort closer to home?

Perhaps it is the lack of experiences tainting the connection
The void of pretense
The missing judgment
The ties that bind us together are forged only in support and kindness

The words validating my secret space, setting me free
The depth of communication seems limitless, that’s new for me

Maybe it’s the raw emotion written down, poured out, and shared only for some to see

Is it our struggle
Is it our strength
Is it our passion
Is it our vulnerability
Is writing our connection
Perhaps it is a little bit of all of these.

xoxo
♥️me
7/4/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme

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