Melancholy breeze
Barefoot on the beach
Tear kissed cheeks
Ocean serenading
Sunshine shadowing doubt
Cast out to sea
Drifting tides of memories
Her life was worthy
But she couldn’t see
Washed away
A forgotten journey
Seeking peace
#mentalhealth #youarenotalone @800273TALK #hope
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You did
You always have
Countless moments
New mom and dad
An eternity not sufficient enough
To realize the greatness you posses
A measurement doesn’t exist to capture all that you give
Unconditional love
A selfless gift
Adoption
What it means
From an adoptee
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I wander quietly on a deserted beach
Tides of emotions caress me
Love crashing against the sea
Bitter chill in the breeze
A million thoughts
Questioning everything
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The truth
It was real
It’s done
Heartache’s silent embrace
Gift of Finality
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Which version do you prefer me to be?
The me that doesn’t always suit you quite so perfectly
The me that fits your perception of who I should be
The me who never has moments of weakness that brings me to my knees
It is difficult trying to be who everyone wants me to be
One day I’m going to only have myself to please
I reach out for your hand, repeatedly waiting just for someone to understand
Love me
Hate me
There is no in between
I understand though because I feel the same things
I’ve spent my whole life just trying to breathe
Still to this day I run, I hide, driving around aimlessly in an attempt to ignore the brokenness that is inside
The only thing I really need is someone to listen and comfort the pieces that are me
I know they say love comes with a cost
Maybe I’m just tired of feeling so damn lost
Not feeling accepted has taken a toll on me
Devastation added on top of the underlying pain
Nothing I can do but sit holding no one accountable
What else would you expect me to do
I turn it all inside
Carrying all the burdens
Hiding all the shame
Running from the memories
At the end of the day I have no one to blame
It’s ok though because I know that pain
I feel invisible
Nothing to lose
Oh wait, that’s right
That’s when I get told I don’t have a clue
I wonder if I’ve ever really showed anyone who I really am
My broken pieces run far too deep
Inside my demons constantly keeping me from sleep
Continually re-victimized by the very same voices that keep feeding me lies
Just when I feel I can’t hold on one more day, it occurs to me that no one is coming to save me and it doesn’t even matter if I were to walk away
All the labels and judgment
Fill my ears
But again no one knows the shell of a woman standing in front of them
Too sensitive
Too bossy
Too picky
Too upset
Too cautious
Too angry
Too hurt
Too organized
Too right
Too wrong
Too isolated
Too weak
Too strong
Too emotional
Too tired
Too sexy
Too much
Too difficult
Too quiet
Too old
Too kind
Too loud
Too thoughtful
Too busy
Too hyper
Too complicated
Too Broken
Surrounded by all the voices
Seeming so intrigued
Fascinated by my words and wisdom
They like me
They love me
Oops once again I’ve been misled
They were only passing the time
And never again thought of me
Have you ever truly felt this alone?
A desperate yearning
Emotions run deep
Soulful intensity
Reminiscent of the greatest love stories
Complete serenity
Happiness
Love and empathy
Truth and sincerity
Judgment free
Words led by compassion
Actions reflecting honesty
Am I searching for something that doesn’t exist?
Am I even capable of recognizing it?
Void of ability
The truth
It’s probably me
Embracing numbness
Forcing it away
Too fearful of rejection
Expecting you to leave
Bracing for it
Ruining this
Keeping you close
Not letting you in completely
Hypocrisy speaking
There are so many of you that make me feel your words so deeply, that I look forward to reading your new writings when you post them.
You challenge my thoughts, inspire my soul, provoke deep emotions, provide comfort, make me smile, and often remind me that whatever I am facing, I am not alone. I truly appreciate your words, your soul baring, raw truths and the way it impacts me and so many others.
Embracing your unapologetic authenticity can be daunting and sharing it to the world, a true strength, I admire. I offer my gratitude to each of you.
https://hisnamewaszach.wordpress.com/
http://thelightison.blog
https://afadedromantic.wordpress.com/
https://afragilemind.home.blog/2019/10/22/done-in/
https://sirhanz.home.blog/2019/10/22/in-between/
https://shortprose.blog/2019/10/22/children-of-the-first-amen-autumn-poem-poetry/
https://freeverserevolution.wordpress.com/2019/10/22/hope-in-dreams-mark-tulin/
https://whisperandtheroar.com/2019/09/24/the-circle-of-life-christine-bolton/
https://millenniallifecrisis.org/2019/10/06/stay-humble-and-hustle-hard/
http://lookinginyourwindow.com
http://iwriteher.com
https://eatdelight3.com/2019/10/17/the-opposite/
http://drbogdan.home.blog
https://michael2malachi.wordpress.com/2019/10/21/words-2/
https://renardsworld.wordpress.com/2019/10/05/how-to-be-a-wise-blogger/
https://theblightersrock.wordpress.com/2019/10/22/opus-2/
https://joysblessingspoetry.com/2019/10/21/tendrils-of-light/
xoxo
❤me
https://braveandrecklessblog.com/2019/10/13/my-soul-to-keep-taylor-grace/
In the shadows
Forgotten peace
Silence, the thief
My soul to keep
Buried shame
Selfish needs
Lost time
Safety
Comfort
What I seek
Some days a domestic goddess, and other days a lost woman that still hasn’t bothered to brush her hair. My journey is full of life’s whimsical tales, love, laughter, heartache, trauma, passion, fantasy and everything in between. My writing is raw, sometimes too raw but I write it anyways, it’s my truth, my voice and I will share it. I’ve been described as honest, even complicated and have a whole lot of sassy undertones, so things get interesting, even comical at times. You can read more of my writing at The Broken Inside Me
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It was me
I fucked it up so badly
All these broken pieces
Sharp edges continue to cut
Shredding love
Distorting compassion
Releasing anger
Casting shadows of doubt
I hate myself for it all
You loved unconditionally
Attempting to bandage internal wounds
I pushed you away
My demons wouldn’t let you get too close
Forever damaged
I can’t be saved despite your efforts
Sabotaged eternally
I am truly sorry
You deserve so much more than I could ever be
Never having to pay the price for the disaster that I turned out to be
While you were attempting to save me
I drowned us both in the pain
Holding my love hostage for fears sake
I don’t know how to do this without you
I cherish the moments
The laughter
Spontaneous adventures
Your embrace
Quiet nights on the couch with you
We shared so much
Holding my hand when I was too weak to face it alone
The feel of your touch
I will miss you
Please don’t erase me and our memories
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Our journey may be different
Our needs evolve over time
Our wants fluctuate
Sometimes leaving behind troubled waters
Like the flow of the ocean, hard and consuming, it can leave us submerged
During the emotional storms we often struggle just to remain afloat
When the waters are calm and serene we sink blindly into the unknown dangers below the surface
This isn’t the way your life has to go
Our deep buried emotions can attempt to drown us temporarily or teach us to swim forever
The water, like our emotions, can be misleading
Our view can be distorted depending on where we currently stand
The terror is frightening if your desperately treading water in the sea
Alternatively
The warm, sweet, & blissful release of comfort and security is only realized once you make it to the beach
Realization crashing against the sand of our circumstance
It’s your journey
It’s your life, in your hands
Sometimes we need to reach out and that is where strength comes in
The weight of the ocean will only leave you treading water
That’s not a place you can sustain, only staying afloat until the weight of the pain is too intense
The ocean’s current below you working to pull you in, like the negativity you have deep within
So many are standing just on the sand, waiting, offering and willing to give you a hand
You only need to take that chance grab it
We each need assistance at some point
For someone to encourage, validate and tell us we can, we are and save us from drowning in the flood of emotions
Strength comes when you don’t have many other options, so let is save you
from life’s waves of high tides and sinking further in the lows.
xoxo
♥️me
7/14/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com
Did you know
You are never alone
Despite the days, weeks, months or years that pass
In my heart, my thoughts and my prayers
I am here
Did you know
Not time, nor distance, or the words unspoken
Could ever take away the bond we share
That kind of unconditional love doesn’t get broken
I am here
Did you know
The pain, the heartache, and sense of never belonging
Forever stealing the joy of most days
We are both broken just in different ways
I am here
Did you know
That hopeless feeling, the endless running and the demons that encase us
All just a quiet moment away
I know who you are because I am the same
I am here
Did you know
The childhood memories I hold near
They all include you
You were the light on some of my darkest days
You are my Bubba
And I am still here
xoxo
❤me
Thebrokeninsideofme.com
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