I Survive

Throughout my life

I fall

I rise

I live

I learn

I survive

Against life’s tapestry

Taking forward strides

In my darkest moments

I stop

I retreat

I isolate

I cry

I still survive

Detours, destinations, love, loss and lies

Along this unforgiving path

Alone or with allies

I keep trying

My journey started with trauma

I have looked evil in the eyes

I have overcome those that tried to take my life

I have been abandoned

Completely cast aside by those that gave me life

I have prepared to die numerous times

I have been cut apart

I have been embedded with foreign parts

Broken, stitched together and cauterized

I did survive

But along the way

I have experienced many wonderful times

I have seen a child brought into this world

I have held the hand of someone leaving this life

I have felt a love that never dies

I have seen the world through someone else’s eyes

I have laid under a million stars across the night sky

I have been lost and found

I have found my voice

I have realized my strength

I have learned forgiveness

I have seen many beautiful scenes

I have survived

Across this fragile thing called life

I stand

I live

I fight

These scars represent the battles I’ve won

The pain serves as my battle cry

A warrior

I ALWAYS SURVIVE

 

What do you see
What Do You See

Burning Grief


Pouring it out
Like gasoline
Onto embers

Discarded reflections
Tossed over
Sorting it all out

Striking the match
Igniting pain
Pieces engulfed
Burning it down

Shattered
Completely hollow
Lost or profound

Crackling grief

The sound of healing
Stoking memories
Smoke billows peace
Breathing relief

Slate wiped clean
Ashes floating
Carrying secrets hidden deep
Therapeutic release

Renew

In the moments you felt alone
Struggling to find peace
I was there to help you see

Wrapping my love around your grief
Whispering, I believe
Wiping tears from your cheeks

Through clouded days
During the darkest nights
Giving you my everything

I was
I did
I have

Caring so much

But you couldn’t see
Perspective outside your needs
Compassion reciprocating
No such thing

Leaving me empty
Ignored completely

Today, I see
Reality
Clarity

I would never be
You would never see

Renewal, my priority

Sunset View

I had some “me time” at the beach, my favorite place.

I was able to capture sunset on the water, so beautiful!

Where do you go for “me time” or to relax?

Sunset on the water

Erasing Me

I want to scream
Tears flowing
Heart racing
Watching as they are stolen
Memories wiped clean

Faces of anger
Locked away voices of grief
Conflicting realities
Desperately seeking relief
Begging for clarity
Hours
Days
Weeks
To them
It’s all the same thing
Stripped of comprehending

The worst part of growing up
They age too

Powerless

Nothing I can do
As they slip further into the disease
For one day soon
It will completely erase me

Standing
In front of them
As
A
Stranger

They once knew

Their
Daughter
The gift of Parkinson’s, Dementia & alzheimers
I hate you

Anthology

I am incredibly honored to have 3 pieces selected for inclusion in the anthology, Screaming from the Silence

@vociferouspress @nightandsparrow

Screaming from the Silence consists of three sections:

Stanzas from the Silence β€“ poetry

Stories from the Silence β€“ prose

Sketches from the Silence β€“ visual art

Coming January 2020

Moonlight

Quietly watching
Anticipating
I wander
Lost in thought
Desperately hoping
For the peace
That eludes me each night
Continually seeking
For something
I have yet to find
In the antelucan hour
Between the darkness and light
I find beauty
Struggling
An internal battle
Acceptance
Forgiveness
Yesterhurt reminders
Stealing my time
Shadowing light
I continue
Fighting
The war inside


Therapeutic Artistry

Forged artistry 
 Blazing creativity
 Hammering relief
 Sculpting beauty
 Pressed intensely
 Distorted memories
 Exposed melancholy
 Bending purposely
 Spilling emotions
 In each piece
 
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 Creative therapy
 

Becoming Fragile

Ever changing story
Hidden amongst deceit
Shaded memories
Meticulously painted
Carefully swaying perceptions of who she use to be
Self serving quality
Imprinted deep
Blue, purple & green
Scars left unseen
Reminding me
There use to be truth
Distorted so prettily


Living

On the edge

I tread

Purposely

Existence battling fantasy

Excitement versus normalcy

Flatline never fears intense heartbeat

I live to feel

That rush

Living or Dying

Experiencing everything

A path of release

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