Forever

Forever

Standing in the pain
Lost direction
Continue ahead for more of the same
Turn and walk away
I remain lost with no direction
I inch along the path seeking clarity

Dark
Damp
Gloomy
My existence
The choices before me
The path ahead
All practically the same

Lost in thought
The weather mimics my emotions
Rain drops fall
The tears follow
Each serving a purpose
Repairing, healing and growing
Washing the slate clean

Detour ahead for the heart, body and soul

Forever

A word used often
Doesn’t always play out as it is defined to mean
Interpreting it has a way of meaning two different things

I Survive

Throughout my life

I fall

I rise

I live

I learn

I survive

Against life’s tapestry

Taking forward strides

In my darkest moments

I stop

I retreat

I isolate

I cry

I still survive

Detours, destinations, love, loss and lies

Along this unforgiving path

Alone or with allies

I keep trying

My journey started with trauma

I have looked evil in the eyes

I have overcome those that tried to take my life

I have been abandoned

Completely cast aside by those that gave me life

I have prepared to die numerous times

I have been cut apart

I have been embedded with foreign parts

Broken, stitched together and cauterized

I did survive

But along the way

I have experienced many wonderful times

I have seen a child brought into this world

I have held the hand of someone leaving this life

I have felt a love that never dies

I have seen the world through someone else’s eyes

I have laid under a million stars across the night sky

I have been lost and found

I have found my voice

I have realized my strength

I have learned forgiveness

I have seen many beautiful scenes

I have survived

Across this fragile thing called life

I stand

I live

I fight

These scars represent the battles I’ve won

The pain serves as my battle cry

A warrior

I ALWAYS SURVIVE

 

What do you see
What Do You See

Let it Be

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Let there be storms

In the darkness

Let it be me that you cling to

As the thunder echos

Let it be my heart you feel pounding

When lightning ignites the night sky

Let it be my face you look to

As the rain creates a saturating lullaby upon the window pane

Let it be me calming you with loves melody

Let there be storms

Let it be me

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Burning Grief


Pouring it out
Like gasoline
Onto embers

Discarded reflections
Tossed over
Sorting it all out

Striking the match
Igniting pain
Pieces engulfed
Burning it down

Shattered
Completely hollow
Lost or profound

Crackling grief

The sound of healing
Stoking memories
Smoke billows peace
Breathing relief

Slate wiped clean
Ashes floating
Carrying secrets hidden deep
Therapeutic release

Renew

In the moments you felt alone
Struggling to find peace
I was there to help you see

Wrapping my love around your grief
Whispering, I believe
Wiping tears from your cheeks

Through clouded days
During the darkest nights
Giving you my everything

I was
I did
I have

Caring so much

But you couldn’t see
Perspective outside your needs
Compassion reciprocating
No such thing

Leaving me empty
Ignored completely

Today, I see
Reality
Clarity

I would never be
You would never see

Renewal, my priority

Her Fire

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Her fire
Mesmerizing
Her smile
Like sunshine on your skin

There is a fascinating sparkle surrounding all her sharp edges

Her skin is weathered
But in a beautiful way
Her soul is broken
She won’t let you see
Somewhere between
An Angel and Devil

Loving her

The Best and Worst feeling

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Indefinitely

Never again
Only faded scenes
History replayed so exquisitely

The gentle caress
Passionate breath
Flesh accelerates heating Glistening bodies
Wanting

If only
I could
Replay

You and I

Excitement’s release
Pulsing For Repeat

Indefinitely

Erasing Me

I want to scream
Tears flowing
Heart racing
Watching as they are stolen
Memories wiped clean

Faces of anger
Locked away voices of grief
Conflicting realities
Desperately seeking relief
Begging for clarity
Hours
Days
Weeks
To them
It’s all the same thing
Stripped of comprehending

The worst part of growing up
They age too

Powerless

Nothing I can do
As they slip further into the disease
For one day soon
It will completely erase me

Standing
In front of them
As
A
Stranger

They once knew

Their
Daughter
The gift of Parkinson’s, Dementia & alzheimers
I hate you

Anthology

I am incredibly honored to have 3 pieces selected for inclusion in the anthology, Screaming from the Silence

@vociferouspress @nightandsparrow

Screaming from the Silence consists of three sections:

Stanzas from the Silence – poetry

Stories from the Silence – prose

Sketches from the Silence – visual art

Coming January 2020

2019

Heartbreak
Loss
Beginnings
Endings
Love
Happiness
Chances
Choices
Learning
Growing
Writing along the way
2019 has broken me
2019 has inspired me
Through it all
Forever changed
And
I am Grateful

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