I want to scream Tears flowing Heart racing Watching as they are stolen Memories wiped clean
Faces of anger Locked away voices of grief Conflicting realities Desperately seeking relief Begging for clarity Hours Days Weeks To them It’s all the same thing Stripped of comprehending
The worst part of growing up They age too
Powerless
Nothing I can do As they slip further into the disease For one day soon It will completely erase me
Standing In front of them As A Stranger
They once knew
Their Daughter The gift of Parkinson’s, Dementia & alzheimers I hate you
Heartbreak Loss Beginnings Endings Love Happiness Chances Choices Learning Growing Writing along the way 2019 has broken me 2019 has inspired me Through it all Forever changed And I am Grateful
Melancholy breeze
Barefoot on the beach
Tear kissed cheeks
Ocean serenading
Sunshine shadowing doubt
Cast out to sea
Drifting tides of memories
Her life was worthy
But she couldn’t see
Washed away
A forgotten journey
Seeking peace
🖤 You did You always have Countless moments New mom and dad An eternity not sufficient enough To realize the greatness you posses A measurement doesn’t exist to capture all that you give Unconditional love A selfless gift Adoption What it means From an adoptee
There are so many of you that make me feel your words so deeply, that I look forward to reading your new writings when you post them.
You challenge my thoughts, inspire my soul, provoke deep emotions, provide comfort, make me smile, and often remind me that whatever I am facing, I am not alone. I truly appreciate your words, your soul baring, raw truths and the way it impacts me and so many others.
Embracing your unapologetic authenticity can be daunting and sharing it to the world, a true strength, I admire. I offer my gratitude to each of you.
In the shadows
Forgotten peace
Silence, the thief
My soul to keep
Buried shame
Selfish needs
Lost time
Safety
Comfort
What I seek
Some days a domestic goddess, and other days a lost woman that still hasn’t bothered to brush her hair. My journey is full of life’s whimsical tales, love, laughter, heartache, trauma, passion, fantasy and everything in between. My writing is raw, sometimes too raw but I write it anyways, it’s my truth, my voice and I will share it. I’ve been described as honest, even complicated and have a whole lot of sassy undertones, so things get interesting, even comical at times. You can read more of my writing at The Broken Inside Me
Our journey may be different Our needs evolve over time Our wants fluctuate Sometimes leaving behind troubled waters
Like the flow of the ocean, hard and consuming, it can leave us submerged During the emotional storms we often struggle just to remain afloat
When the waters are calm and serene we sink blindly into the unknown dangers below the surface This isn’t the way your life has to go
Our deep buried emotions can attempt to drown us temporarily or teach us to swim forever
The water, like our emotions, can be misleading Our view can be distorted depending on where we currently stand The terror is frightening if your desperately treading water in the sea Alternatively The warm, sweet, & blissful release of comfort and security is only realized once you make it to the beach
Realization crashing against the sand of our circumstance It’s your journey It’s your life, in your hands Sometimes we need to reach out and that is where strength comes in
The weight of the ocean will only leave you treading water That’s not a place you can sustain, only staying afloat until the weight of the pain is too intense
The ocean’s current below you working to pull you in, like the negativity you have deep within
So many are standing just on the sand, waiting, offering and willing to give you a hand You only need to take that chance grab it
We each need assistance at some point
For someone to encourage, validate and tell us we can, we are and save us from drowning in the flood of emotions
Strength comes when you don’t have many other options, so let is save you from life’s waves of high tides and sinking further in the lows.
