Alone

Which version do you prefer me to be?

The me that doesn’t always suit you quite so perfectly

The me that fits your perception of who I should be

The me who never has moments of weakness that brings me to my knees

It is difficult trying to be who everyone wants me to be

One day I’m going to only have myself to please

I reach out for your hand, repeatedly waiting just for someone to understand

Love me

Hate me

There is no in between

I understand though because I feel the same things

I’ve spent my whole life just trying to breathe

Still to this day I run, I hide, driving around aimlessly in an attempt ignore the brokenness that is inside

The only thing I really need is someone to listen and comfort the pieces that are me

I know they say love comes with a cost Maybe I’m just tired of feeling so damn lost

Not feeling accepted has taken a toll on me

Devastation added on top of the underlying pain

Nothing I can do but sit holding no one accountable

What else would you expect me to do

I turn it all inside

Carrying all the burdens

Hiding all the shame

Running from the memories

At the end of the day I have no one to blame

It’s ok though because I know that pain

I feel invisible

Nothing to lose

Oh wait, that’s right

That’s when I get told I don’t have a clue

I wonder if I’ve ever really showed anyone who I really am

My broken pieces run far to deep

Inside my demons constantly keeping me from sleep

Continually re-victimized by the very same voices that keep feeding me lies

Just when I feel I can’t hold on one more day, it occurs to me that no one is coming to save me and it doesn’t even matter if I were to walk away

All the labels and judgment

Fill my ears

But again no one knows the shell of a woman standing in front of them

Too sensitive

Too bossy

Too picky

Too upset

Too cautious

Too angry

Too hurt

Too organized

Too right

Too wrong

Too isolated

Too weak

Too strong

Too emotional

Too tired

Too sexy

Too much

Too difficult

Too quiet

Too old

Too kind

Too loud

Too thoughtful

Too busy

Too hyper

Too complicated

Too Broken

Surrounded by all the voices

Seeming so intrigued

Fascinated by my words & wisdom

They like me

They love me

Oops once again I’ve been misled

They were only passing the time

And never again thought of me

Have you ever truly felt this alone?


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One More Memory


As the day fades
Blue sky reflects hues of the bay
White clouds passing by
Graying shades
Under approaching stormy night

Birds flying in synchrony
Lizards chasing bugs up the tree
Bright orange butterflies are a beautiful sight
A white dove perched up high coos to me

Memories in the making

As I look to the ever changing sky
I long for your presence by my side
One last hug
You holding me tight

My wish

Just one more moment
You, enjoying this with me


xoxo

♥️me

10/17/2019

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Etched in Eternity

When our lips did meet

Warm
Inviting
Divine
Parted slightly

Texture
Smooth
Glistening
Rugged serenity

Taste
Intoxicating
Subtle
Bittersweet
Burning Intensity

Your lips
Last dying kiss
Beautifully haunting
Devastatingly incomplete

A Remembrance
The Finality
Etched in eternity

xoxo
♥️me
10/15/2019
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If Only

To hold
A dream

Body craving

A kiss
Lips taste so sweet

Your touch
Surrendering


If you could be mine


Time would be counted by your embrace
Cascading fantasy


Essence of you


Embodied fervor
Stealing my breath


Rhythm accelerates in my chest


Entangling lust
Exquisitely bonded
My heart complete


If only….


xoxo
♥️me
9/30/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

 

If You Could Be Mine

Loneliness and Me

Perched
Waiting
Hoping

Hiding in between
Wishing upon the night closing in
A dream
Just beyond her reach

Once in her journey
If only it could be
He would arrive
Speak of her Beauty
Fall madly
Trip passionately on the breeze

A secret, she did keep
More at peace in the darkness
Her comfort, solidarity

Time repeats
A hundred nights
She sits waiting
Fearing
Anticipating
Her heart growing colder
Faith in love
A total loss

Fingers gripping onto remorse
Behind her back
A flower wasting
Restoring her sorrow
Alone, forever, she will be


 

xoxo
❤ Me
9/28/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

#CTU

 

Replay

Hours come and go

Days blur into nights

The silence is torture

Lost in my mind

Fading in and out

Your memory

Stealing my present

I gave you everything

You stole pieces of me

Never to regain

Here comes the sun

Longing for better days

Covered in harsh rays

Closing my eyes

I still see your face

Smile on your lips

The way you taste

Pressed into time

Unable to turn the page

Casting shadows

Spilled across my story

Love still replays

xoxo

me

9/27/2019

Thebrokeninsideofme.com

via Daily Writing Prompt: Here Comes the Sun – Nicole Dennis-Benn

Serene Symphony

Ocean front
Cool wind
Salty breeze
Sunshine kisses
Covering me
Aroma of jasmine
Hint of vanilla
Warm sand so inviting

The waves crashing
A serene symphony
Mindfully aware
Nature’s beauty
Floating on air

xoxo
♥️me
9/21/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

Daily Word Prompt – Wind

I Write Her Weekly Haiku Challenge

Crafting a journey
Words stitched into poetry
Written dreams released

xoxo
me
8/28/2019
thebrokeninsideofme.com

IWH Haiku/Senryu Challenge

I Write Her Weekly Haiku/Senryu Challenge #34

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