I've never known the love of a father Never experienced a grandparents love either People often question why I grow distant or completely disappear I guess the best answer is, that I'm still trying to find my place in this world I feel alone I feel unlovable After all my own mother abandoned me when [...]
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Strong is Hard
In the moments I'm feeling less than enough I am reminded how strong I amIt is a comfort and curse Strength arises after with devastating sorrow and loss One of the hardest parts, is allowing yourself to sit with the weaknesses It is almost an internal battle Which will prevail When you are deemed strong, [...]
I Am
Just Breathe
Some days I just want to forget Take a step forward Learn to be truly free Except it continues to be difficult Thanks to the memories that imprison me Why is it so difficult I sit here alone finding it harder and harder just to breathe The darkness within tugging at me It sits just [...]
Beginnings
The perfect little baby A few sprigs of blonde hair Big hazel eyes for all the world to see Following the lights Tracing the shapes Fascinating just to watch After all, it was his very first time to see Sounds fill the room Laughter, crying, beeping and noise from the machines Yet he hears a [...]
It’s Fine
You don't think it's real It's fine But don't tell me how to feel Minimize my pain It's fine You are only adding to my shame Point out all my flaws It's fine I'm doing my best, oh wait I guess I'm a lost cause I guess, forever alone is what I should be It's [...]
Sunrise
It fills the skyIt warms my soulThe sunrise of a new dayThe chance to start overI find comfort in its beautyI know the day is full of possibilitiesA beautiful sightA wonderful blessingIt's the small things and I am grateful
Alone
Which version do you prefer me to be? The me that doesn't always suit you quite so perfectly The me that fits your perception of who I should be The me who never has moments of weakness that brings me to my knees It is difficult trying to be who everyone wants me to be [...]
Closure
I will never understand how someone that hurt you to your core feels entitled to play the victim You don't get to tell me how good of a person you are when I am the one living it Like a chameleon you adjust to whoever is in the room but as soon as we are [...]
