What If

What if I told you


This ache
Deep in my soul
Words can’t convey

Tears in my eyes
Longing for your touch
Needing you so much
To share this night

If only

Just a moment

I would give my last breath

To view love reflecting in your eyes
To melt into your caress
Feeling the passion in your embrace
I would sacrifice everything
To stand before you
To see the smile on your face

My love

Soothe my pain
Quench this heartache
You are a part of me
Needing you so deeply

Tangled emotions
Want shadowed by need
Explained by greed
Raw beauty

Calling to me



xoxo
♥️me
9/29/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

Waves of Need

Our journey may be different
Our needs evolve over time
Our wants fluctuate
Sometimes leaving behind troubled waters

Like the flow of the ocean, hard and consuming, it can leave us submerged
During the emotional storms we often struggle just to remain afloat

When the waters are calm and serene we sink blindly into the unknown dangers below the surface
This isn’t the way your life has to go

Our deep buried emotions can attempt to drown us temporarily or teach us to swim forever

The water, like our emotions, can be misleading
Our view can be distorted depending on where we currently stand
The terror is frightening if your desperately treading water in the sea
Alternatively
The warm, sweet, & blissful release of comfort and security is only realized once you make it to the beach


Realization crashing against the sand of our circumstance
It’s your journey
It’s your life, in your hands
Sometimes we need to reach out and that is where strength comes in

The weight of the ocean will only leave you treading water
That’s not a place you can sustain, only staying afloat until the weight of the pain is too intense

The ocean’s current below you working to pull you in, like the negativity you have deep within

So many are standing just on the sand, waiting, offering and willing to give you a hand
You only need to take that chance grab it

We each need assistance at some point


For someone to encourage, validate and tell us we can, we are and save us from drowning in the flood of emotions

Strength comes when you don’t have many other options, so let is save you
from life’s waves of high tides and sinking further in the lows.

xoxo
♥️me
7/14/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

Serenaded by the sea

Love on Fire

water-heart

Just under the surface
Like under the sheets
Exploring
Bonding
Growing
Vulnerable
Passionate
My love is limitless

Your attention
Your arms
Your hands
Your kiss
Your voice
Your bite
Craved so deeply
Filling my heart
Crashing into my dreams
Infinite love
Consuming all of me

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xoxo
♥️me
9/29/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

Brothers

Did you know
You are never alone
Despite the days, weeks, months or years that pass
In my heart, my thoughts and my prayers
I am here

Did you know
Not time, nor distance, or the words unspoken
Could ever take away the bond we share
That kind of unconditional love doesn’t get broken
I am here

Did you know
The pain, the heartache, and sense of never belonging
Forever stealing the joy of most days
We are both broken just in different ways
I am here

Did you know
That hopeless feeling, the endless running and the demons that encase us
All just a quiet moment away
I know who you are because I am the same
I am here

Did you know
The childhood memories I hold near
They all include you
You were the light on some of my darkest days
You are my Bubba
And I am still here

xoxo
❤me
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

#CreativeTalentsUnleashed

#siblingstory

REPLAY – Taylor Grace — Brave & Reckless

Hours come and go Days blur into nights The silence is torture Lost in my mind Fading in and out Your memory Stealing my present I gave you everything You stole pieces of me Never to regain Here comes the sun Longing for better days Covered in harsh rays Closing my eyes I still see […]

via REPLAY – Taylor Grace — Brave & Reckless

The Ugly Truth

I was born into a life no child should ever have to experience.

I have never known a Father’s love but instead a Father’s rage, addiction, violence, and being sexually abused.

I was only 2 when he stole a bigger part of me.
I was too young & didn’t understand but was left feeling confused.

I was only 4 when he ripped me apart physically.

Years & years of laughter, love, & joy were not what would be in store for me.
Instead i have faced countless surgeries, unbearable pain and eventually heartbreaking infertility.

Through no fault of my own just another thing he took from me.

The physical scars have distorted my body.
But it’s the emotional wreckage that has continued to haunt me.

I often wonder what that little girl would have grown up to be.

If only she hadn’t been so viciously stolen from me.
She had no time for playtime, fairytales, hopes or dreams.

But instead staying alive & keeping her sanity would be her biggest priority.

You may think she is a survivor & how true that might be
But it certainly doesn’t feel that simple with the daily reminders & horrific memories.

I was only 7 when she abandoned me.
A mother’s love,that I did not see.

Where was my protector & biggest fan.

The person who was suppose to build me up & tell me I can.
Horribly failed me in the short time we had together.
I only wished that she could have loved me better.
What was so wrong with me that my own birth parents could cause so much damage & destruction.
Not stopping to think about how all this would forever affect me.

I continue today living through all the repercussions.
What a tragedy at how my life started off to be.
All because they put addiction, abuse, violence, wants & selfish needs first instead of me.

Years of therapy, doctors & medication could never replace the shattered pieces of my heart, soul & innocence that they have stolen from me.

No justice was served or consequence for them to bare
Although apart they live worry free
No second thought of the damage caused to me
It is my burden to bare, as they live their life vicariously
Wronged yet again through the system, and no justice will ever prevail for me.

The truth never hurts
Their lies disgusting 
Unable to rewrite history
Validation arrives on shattered dreams
My truth, written for all eternity

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xoxo
♥️me
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

Loneliness and Me

Perched
Waiting
Hoping

Hiding in between
Wishing upon the night closing in
A dream
Just beyond her reach

Once in her journey
If only it could be
He would arrive
Speak of her Beauty
Fall madly
Trip passionately on the breeze

A secret, she did keep
More at peace in the darkness
Her comfort, solidarity

Time repeats
A hundred nights
She sits waiting
Fearing
Anticipating
Her heart growing colder
Faith in love
A total loss

Fingers gripping onto remorse
Behind her back
A flower wasting
Restoring her sorrow
Alone, forever, she will be


 

xoxo
❤ Me
9/28/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

#CTU

 

Pieces of Me

Never the priority
Despite offering him all of me
Running in circles
Laughing & Loving
Running & Crying
All at the same time

Unrealistic expectations
I understand & could agree
It’s just not that simple
At least when I say it to the inner me

My heart is hurting
What have I done
Why didn’t I realize beforehand
It’s too late now
I’ve given away more pieces
The pieces of me
Still not enough
Guess I never will be

All I’ve ever wanted
Right beyond my reach
Why does it always seem too difficult
Why can’t someone completely love & want all the pieces that are me

Pieces of Me


xoxo
❤ Me
9/27/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

Replay

Hours come and go

Days blur into nights

The silence is torture

Lost in my mind

Fading in and out

Your memory

Stealing my present

I gave you everything

You stole pieces of me

Never to regain

Here comes the sun

Longing for better days

Covered in harsh rays

Closing my eyes

I still see your face

Smile on your lips

The way you taste

Pressed into time

Unable to turn the page

Casting shadows

Spilled across my story

Love still replays

xoxo

me

9/27/2019

Thebrokeninsideofme.com

via Daily Writing Prompt: Here Comes the Sun – Nicole Dennis-Benn

Hand to Hold

Today I rejoice
In the sorrow
Looking towards the sun
Longing for love filled days
Your hand to hold
To call my own
Patiently waiting
For our tomorrow

xoxo
♥️me
9/27/2019
Thebrokeninsideofme.com

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