I’ve never known the love of a father
Never experienced a grandparents love either
People often question why I grow distant or completely disappear
I guess the best answer is, that I’m still trying to find my place in this world
I feel alone
I feel unlovable
After all my own mother abandoned me when I was 7
Not that it matters because she did more damage in the years she was around
I truly feel like an outsider in my own life
People always leave
Love isn’t a guarantee
The days, months & years pass by
Yet I still sit here wondering what the next day will bring
As if my whole world will be changed
You would think by now I would understand that each day is just more of the same
A Continuous cycle of nothing but sinking deeper and self blame
xo
The broken inside of Me
